Today I still don't have much hope for my dialysis. I think I could really benefit from a vacation. Maybe a short trip somewhere to get away. The only problem is that soon I will have the catheter placed in my chest, and then I will begin my treatments. That means it would be difficult to travel anywhere, as I would have to make arrangements wherever I go to have dialysis treatments there. I feel like I am tied down, and my dreams of traveling have been taken away from me. I wanted to attend medical mission trips to other countries. I don't think this will be happening if I have to go to dialysis three times a week.