I am so fed up with this. I can't believe that this is my life. I'm supposed to have my fistula placed tomorrow. My family is going to be there with me. It's a same day procedure, so it's not too serious. My brother is going to be there, even though he hates being in hospitals. That means a lot to me. It really sucks going through this. I don't have diabetes, what did I do to deserve this? I don't know anyone my age who has to go through this, if they are, they probably have diabetes. This whole mess just seems so unfair.