Right now I'm getting ready to go to work all night. I figured if I keep myself busy doing something I like, I might be able to forget about all of this. I find it is worst when I'm not busy; it's then that my mind starts to race. Your imagination is you worst enemy. It seems to thrive off of coming up with the worst case scenarios. I just hope I'm able to care for the patients properly tonight, and I'm not too distant.