I've decided that tomorrow I'm going to take a huge step and actually tell my family members. I know they are going to be blown away. I'm not even sure how to tell someone this kind of thing. I just don't want to see the look on their faces. I'm afraid that I'll cry. I want to be the strong one. I don't want anyone to see me cry. I know once I start talking it's going to be hard. I just really need the support right now. I'm all alone.